who am i kidding....

so tomorrow is valentine's day. and while I can cringe and feel my stomach churn in disgust, I can't help but say, that I'm probably a sucker for the holiday...but only on the condition that I would never expect anything from anyone...even from the hypothetical or real boyfriend...who might still go to lengths to extend his sentiments...

I think I wrote a while back that I preferred to refer to Feb. 14 as Singles Awareness Day--because this holiday can potentially cause even more grief, heartache and the inevitable reminder to those who don't need to be reminded even more, of an absence of love in their lives...

This is not to say that Valentines' Day is bad...I am tempted in my state of panic--grading papers- to just bake a batch of heart shaped sugar cookies...to send them to people who might not be expecting gifts and wishes for a happy Valentines day--

and to that effect, everyday, then should be valentine's day, should it not? just like everyday should be like thanksgiving, and christmas...

so i guess, I'm secretly hoping that I might be given an expression of love, in the same way that I would like to give to others...
I'm such a hopeless romantic....